Have you ever wondered why it seems you keep coming to the same old insecurities, never seeming to get passed them? For me, I have struggled with insecurities of not measuring up for as long as I can remember. In high school, I was the valedictorian with a very high GPA, but I always compared myself to a friend who didn’t share my goal of going to college right after high school. She was more beautiful, more organized, and thinner, and had better hair, and she had a boyfriend she would marry after graduation. I went on to college and compared myself with a new friend for at least three years. She, of course, was better than me in our major at the time. I went on to change my major, with insecurities of not being good enough to make it in that field. I got my master’s degree a few years after graduating from college. While in my master’s program, I was afraid of not passing student teaching. I ended up crying in front of two of my professors after class one evening because of it. During our master’s hooding ceremony on graduation day, as my professor put my hood on me, she said, “You passed with flying colors.” Even recently, I have been tempted to feel like I don’t what I’m doing at my job although I having been doing a great job for a long time!
The Insecurities Were Lies All Along
As I look at myself through the years, I realize those lies I was tempted to believe about myself are totally not true! It wasn’t as though anyone ever said anything bad about me. I have had more supporters than not over the years. It was the silent shouts of inadequacy that I believed about myself.
Why would I see myself as not being good enough? I did things right. I have always had a great GPA, a fun loving easy to be around personality, and beautiful fast growing hair! To the world it has probably looked like I have had everything together, but I haven’t felt like it.
Something has changed! I am tired of listening to thoughts and feelings that aren’t correct. I have decided to quit listening to lies about myself! I have decided to believe the best about me! I have decided to make it possible for me to really listen to what God says about me and to soak it up and to really believe it this time! No more mentally berating myself because of supposed wrong doings and inadequacies! I am a free woman!
I invite you to be free, too! I invite you to quit thinking the worst about yourself, and start believing the best about you! We are worthy of the best and believing the best about ourselves. We can have this kind of confidence because of God’s intense, overflowing love for us! The only thing that matters is what God says about us anyway.
If you have compared yourself to others and think you don’t measure up, stop! Realize that you are the wonderful, dynamic, awesome person God says you are! If this has encouraged you, please leave a comment and let me know.
Have a glorious day!
Michelle Takahashi says
Love the new blog and will be looking forward to reading your posts!